November 24, 2012

2 Days Until The Jonas Brothers concert!!!!!!!!!

You have no idea how excited I am for this concert. 
The one in New York included a backstage tour and sound check....But, it doesn't look like this one does. Either way, I know it'll be worth it...I'm just crossing my fingers that everything falls into place with tickets and the times of knowing when to show up. I just keep telling myself, it'll all work out. 

Oh, and I'm especially excited to see this face ;) *SIGH*

That's all for now,

Survey Says...

Do you usually sleep with your closet door open or closed? Well, my closet is in a different spot than my room, but I always leave it open, because there's way too much stuff spread everywhere, so it won't close.
    Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels? Sometimes.
       Where is your next vacation? Ummm...My birthday week, I'm going to Las Vegas and Disneyland.
    Have you ever stolen a street sign before? No, I can't say that I have.
    Who do you think reads these? People who are bored like me.
    Do you have a calendar in your room? Not really, just a planner.
    Where are you? I'm in my living room.
    What’s your plan for the day? I helped my parents put up the Christmas lights on the outside of our house.
    Are you reading any books right now? Not really! I started Justin Bieber's mom's book, but I haven't made much progress. 
    Do you ever count your steps when you walk? Not that I've ever noticed.
    Have you ever peed in the woods? No.
    Do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing? Sometimes, if I'm feeling really excited.
    Do you chew your pens and pencils? Not necessarily "chew"....
    What is your “Song of the Week”?
    Is it okay for guys to wear pink? Sure...Depends on the guy, and whether it's for Breast Cancer Awareness month.
    Do you still watch cartoons? Nah...Not so much.
    Whats your favorite love movie? Titanic.
    What do you drink with dinner? Iced tea
    What do you dip Chicken Nuggets in? BBQ sauce or sweet and sour, depending on where I am.
    What is your favorite food/cuisine? Chinese.
    What movies could you watch over and over and still love? Sweet Home Alabama, 13 Going On 30...You know...
    Last person you hugged/kissed? Probably just hugged my parents.
    Were you ever a boy/girl scout? No, I always wanted to be a girl scout, though. I helped my friend out with selling cookies one time, and it was a blast.
       When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? I wrote out a card to my grandpa on Thanksgiving, but the last time I wrote a letter was probably to Ian Somerhalder...I know...
      Favorite kind of sandwich? Roast beef.
    Best thing to eat for breakfast? I don't really eat breakfast, but I like Special K bars and shakes, or something from Jack in the Box. 
    What is your usual bedtime? Whenever I feel like it, which is usually around 2 a.m.
    Are you lazy? I can be at times.
    When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? Usually some sort of Disney character.
    Do you have any magazine subscriptions? No, I wish!
    Which are better, legos or lincoln logs? Lincoln logs for sure!
    Are you stubborn? Yup, but I'm working on it.
    Who is better…Leno or Letterman? Leno!!!!!
    Ever watch soap operas? Yes, I grew up watching them as weird as that sounds.
    Afraid of heights? Not really, but sometimes getting a little high bothers me a bit.
    Sing in the car? Yeah, with the radio.
    Dance in the shower? No, that would be dangerous.
    Dance in the car? Sure, rocking side to side...If that counts haha.
    Ever used a gun? NOPE.
    Do you think musicals are cheesy? Yeah, but that's what makes them awesome.
    Is Christmas stressful? It can be, but it's all a matter of how you look at it.
    Major annoyance right now? The fact that I haven't heard the final info on the Jonas Brothers meet and greet, and I still have math homework to finish.
    Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Singer, writer....Oh, hey! I still want to do those things.
    Do you believe in ghosts? No.
    Ever have a deja-vu feeling? Yeah, here and there.
    Do you take a vitamin daily? No, but I probably should.
       Wal-Mart, Target or K-Mart? Target! I go there way too much.
    Nike or Adidas? I don't care.
    Cheetos Or Fritos? Fritos, as long as I have bean dip.
    Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Peanuts.
    Ever hear of, “gorp”? No...Should I have?
    Ever taken karate? No, but it looks pretty cool!
     Can you curl your tongue? Yup!
    Ever won a spelling bee? No, but I used to compete in them all the time.
    Ever cried because you were so happy? YES! A lot lately, especially.
    Own any record albums? I do; Taylor Swift's Speak Now
    Own a record player? My dad does.
    Regularly burn incense? No.
    Ever been in love? No, but I'd love to fall in love with the right person someday.
    Hot tea or cold tea: BOTH.
    Tea or coffee? BOTH.
    Favorite kind of cookie? Chocolate chip? Macadamia nut? Cookies in general are my weakness.
    Can you swim well? I can swim..."well", not so much.
    Can you hold your breath w/o manually holding your nose? Not underwater.
    Are you patient? I'm working on it.
    Ever won a contest? Quite a few .
    Ever had plastic surgery? No, and I don't plan on it either.
    Which are better black or green olives? I used to hate the green when I was younger, but now I think I might like those a little more.
    Can you knit or crochet? Neither if I'm the one doing it.
    Wash room or bathroom? I don't care...
    Do you want to get married? Absolutely. If the right guy comes along.
    Who was your High School crush? Nick Jonas. HAHA, jk...Well, not really...But, also a couple guys from my school.
    Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? Uhhhh...No....
    Do you have kids? No.
    Do you want kids? Yeah, I really do!
    Do you miss anyone right now? Yeah, a few people...My grandparents and people I just don't talk to much anymore.
    Who do you want to see right now? Nick Jonas. Seriously? Oh, ok...Nick Jonas....Not ashamed either.

Some Questions

Current obsession: I go through phases, where I'm totally obsessed with one thing and it's like all I talk about/think about/dream about/bug people about, etc. Right now, I would have to say...The Vampire Diaries wins this award.

What is your current favorite memory: The time that my parents gave me the certificate to tell me I'm meeting the Jonas Brothers...Until the actual thing happens, of course.

Starbucks or Peet's Coffee? Starbucks. I've never had Peet's.

What's for dinner? I went to Chili's for dinner; Buffalo Chicken Ranch Sandwich.

What would you eat for your last meal? Probably some kind of Chinese food or Chipotle.

 Last thing you bought: Uhhhh....I don't remember. I think it was season one of The Vampire Diaries last weekend? 

What are you listening to right now? The news on TV. 

Favorite Ice cream flavor? Cookie dough or anything coffee-like.

What was your favorite toy growing up? I really loved my little blue kitchen. It had a "stove", counter, and a lot of the other things that a kitchen has. I would wear a little apron and annoy my family members all the time by taking their orders.

If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go? Either Nashville, because I love it there so much or Australia, because I've been dying to go there since I was about ten.

What language do you want to learn? I know some French, since I took two years in high school, but I'd love to learn more. I really enjoyed it. 

Favorite quote for now:  
“Things change. And friends leave. Life doesn't stop for anybody.” 
"You see things. You understand. You're a wallflower."
(all quotes from Perks Of Being A Wallflower)

Favorite color: Pink, red, purple...Pretty much any color of the rainbow.

What is your favorite piece of clothing in your own wardrobe? Probably my blazers or the denim vest I just got not too long ago.

Dream job: Working alongside Ryan Seacrest and Giuliana Rancic on the red carpets with E! News. 

What is your worst habit: Getting annoyed with every little thing and complaining too much. It's bad!

If you had 100$ right now, what would you spend it on? I'd buy a ticket to the Eden's Edge show in town next week, Kelly Clarkson's greatest hits, the next two seasons of TVD, and Lauren Conrad's Beauty book.

Do you admire anyone's style? A lot actually, but my main style icon has always been Demi Lovato. I love that she's very girly, yet still a little rocker with combat boots. 

Describe your personal style. As most people will say...My style changes with my mood, but I'd like to say that most of the time I'm more along the lines of dress casual. I like to look nice and put together, but I'm not going to dress like the Kardashians on a daily basis, because it's not practical for the things that I do.

What are you going to do after this? Take a shower, maybe watch something on Netflix, and go to bed.

Favorite movies. Just about any chick flick; The Proposal, A Walk To Remember, When In Rome.....

Favorite fruit. Plums? Apples...I eat pretty much any fruit.

What inspires you? Nature, my friends, my family, documentaries and blogs.

Your favorite book. The Last Song. Also the Miley Cyrus autobiography...Don't judge me. 

Do you collect something? I guess if autographs count...Then, sure. I used to collect postcards, and still do, but they're scattered all around.

What are you most proud of? How much progress I've made personally this year. I'm the happiest I've ever been :) I finally feel like I'm content with just being me.

What do you like most about yourself? My hair...And that I'm loyal to people. I probably give more chances than people deserve, but I feel like that's what we're supposed to do.

What is your go to nail polish? I don't paint my nails a lot, but I have been more lately. I don't really have a "go to" polish.

8 things I'm looking forward to:
  • The Jonas Brothers concert/VIP Party/MEETING them
  • New episode of The Vampire Diaries next Thursday
  • Christmas break
  • My 21st birthday
  • Seeing Tim McGraw and Faith Hill in Las Vegas
  • Seeing Shania Twain in Las Vegas
  • Graduating from my community college
  • The new season of American Idol to get tickets for the live shows  
8 things I did yesterday:
  • Peeled exactly ONE potato
  • Made my grandma's jello salad
  • Went bike riding
  • Ate.....
  • Bowled on wii
  • Spent time with my family
  • Helped my mom set the table
  • Listened to Christmas music
8 Things I wish I could do:
  • NOT do the rest of my math homework
  • Skip my math test
  • Go to college in Nashville
  • Finish all of the seasons of Gossip Girl on Netflix
  • Fast forward to Tuesday
  • Sleep
  • Sleep
  • Sleeeeeeepp
8 Shows I Enjoy:
  • The Vampire Diaries
  • One Tree Hill
  • Friends
  • Gilmore Girls
  • Gossip Girl
  • American Idol
  • The X Factor
  • Good Luck Charlie

November 23, 2012

The Weekly Review

Well, first off, apparently I'm out of picture storage on Blogger and the Picasa Web albums I've used in the past, so for right now, it doesn't look like I'll be able to post pictures on the blog :( You can follow me on Instagram, though, because I post pictures constantly on there (in fact, most of the pictures I'd usually post come from there anyway).

In other news, this week has been AMAZING! The beginning of the week was devoted to getting things together for the holidays; some cleaning, decorating the house for Christmas, putting the tree up, and doing a lot of homework. I tend to put my homework off more than I ever used to, so I thought I'd actually try to get most of it done before Thanksgiving, so I could just enjoy that time. I did alright for the most part. I only had one class this week, on Tuesday, and since it's just creative writing, there wasn't much focus that was needed. Which was great, because I ended up talking to my friend in class about the Jonas Brothers, and giving her some insights to help her meet them, if possible. That was a really fun class!

Tuesday night, my parents surprised me with an envelope that had a printed sheet on top, saying, "Christmas and birthday present", normally they only do this when it's something BIG! And the fact that it was BEFORE Christmas (which also never happens) could only mean one thing. I opened the envelope, and inside was a "gift certificate" that my mom had made on the computer saying that I would be MEETING the Jonas Brothers. I've wanted to meet them for as long as I can remember, and I had told them about the special VIP package, but after finding out how much it cost, I didn't think my dad would ever go for it. But, he did!!! He even told me after I opened it, "I know it's on your bucket list..." which meant so much to me. I was freaking out, and immediately started trying to figure out what I would wear. I mean, my future husband is in the group...I have to look good! LOL.

As for the decorating, that used to be my favorite thing to do around the holidays. I would almost beg my parents or just keep bugging them about how excited I was. My stomach was usually full of butterflies in anticipation for time together with the family, opening presents, plays at school and church, looking at lights, and anything else you can imagine. But, it seems like ever since three of my grandparents have passed away, it's like a lot of my Christmas cheer has gone out as well. I feel a little more bitter around this time than I ever used to, whether it's about the preparation or being "alone" for the holidays. I find myself being extremely sarcastic and just down for no reason. I wasn't enjoying wrapping the tree in garland or placing the ornaments on the tree. I was almost just getting tired and ready to be done. It was still fun, and they're still memories that I'll always cherish of spending time with my mom; the two of us going back and forth about whatever or laughing at something completely lame. But, I'd like to feel the warmth of the holidays again. Maybe as you get older, things really do just change, and that's life.

Thanksgiving was yesterday, so our house was filled with family, friends and a lot of food. I already devoted an entire post to that.

Today, I was finally able to sleep in, until around 10:30, which was later than I had planned for. I walked to the living room, where my mom and cousin were already sitting. We hung out for awhile. I filled them in on my dream last night, which consisted of Austin Nichols being my math teacher in high school, and apparently my best friend was friends with him. Some girl kept trying to bump into me, while I tried to fill out paperwork and I just kept giving her this look, while trying to push her off of me. I have no idea where that even came from. I also had a dream about hanging out with the Kardashians. Once again, I have no idea where these things came from. My mind is crazy and tends to involve celebrities...A LOT. Soon after that, we decided to get ready and have lunch together.

We went to a local restaurant, that's owned by people who go to our church, for lunch, which was tasty. We were all a bit quiet, more than likely because of all of the festivities yesterday, and we were all still waking up. We finished eating, said our goodbyes, then my mom and I ran a couple errands. We had a few things to pick up, but didn't feel like braving Target or another major store, so we ran to Rite Aid, and got the car washed. Now, the rest of the afternoon will be devoted to more homework and watching pointless television.

Hope you all have a fantastic weekend! :)


Another Thanksgiving has come and gone. The turkey and trimmings are all stored in the refrigerator now, and everyone has gone home. I had such a nice time being with family and friends, even though I always tend to have this perfect little idea of how things should go in my mind, and it always comes out a bit differently, but in most cases, it's always better that way. It's a lot better to just see what happens.

I set my alarm for 8:00, because I wasn't about to miss out on any of the festivities. I heard my mom and dad talking in the kitchen, as my mom was prepping the turkey. I walked out to the kitchen, saying good morning to my parents, then turned on the news to KTLA 5, just waiting for the Macy's Parade to start. The parade came on not long after, but my dad and I ended up going to Marie Callendar's to pick up the pie we had ordered. We listened to Lady Antebellum's Christmas CD on the way, which is fantastic! Marie Callendar's didn't seem quite as busy as I thought it would be, which was good. The girl that waited on us is actually in my creative writing class. I thought she would recognize me, but apparently not. Then again, neither did I, but sometimes I tend to over analyze those things until I'm blue in the face. Plus, the fact that I was already starting to feel frustrated was not doing anything for me. We got our Chocolate Meringue and Pumpkin pies, then made one last stop at a little store at a gas station to pick up batteries and soda. On our way home, we got breakfast at Jack-In-The-Box, and brought it home, since we wouldn't be eating until much later on.

We ate, while watching the parade, and I have to say the parade was really not as exciting as it used to be. It doesn't seem like they get good entertainment anymore. It has always been a dream of mine to sing in the parade, from the time that I was a little girl. I still think about it when that time of year comes around, but not as often as I used to be, because it's starting to seem like a further off dream. When the parade was over, I helped make my grandma's green jello salad that she always used to make. It almost just makes me sad to make it now, though. You would think as time passes, that you wouldn't miss those loved ones quite as much, but you still do. While the jello sat in the refrigerator for a few hours, I helped my mom make our table look festive. I had been showing my mom pictures of Martina McBride and the Jonas family's table all dressed up for Thanksgiving dinner, so we decided to do the same. It looked really good, if I do say so myself. A little while later, my dad and I decided to go on a bike ride. It's this tradition we've had for as long as I can remember. I'm sure there were a few years we skipped, for whatever reason, but for the most part we always try to do it now. It wasn't that cold out, but it was a bit overcast. We had fun talking and just enjoying the nice weather; admiring the trees turning to orange and red all around us. We rode up to the park, which was busy with guys playing football. It reminded my dad of stories from his time growing up of playing football with his friends.

We parked our bikes in the garage when we were done and walked into the house with the smell of turkey wafting into the living room. It was getting closer to the time of our family's arrival, so I decided to hop in the shower and finished getting ready. My aunt and cousin arrived, while we finished getting some things together, and pretty soon my aunt and uncle arrived. I helped dish out the cranberry sauce, while my mom finished up the turkey.  Finally, everything was lined up and ready to go. My dad prayed over the food, and we were ready to eat. There was a ton of it to go around; mashed potatoes, rolls, jello salad, green bean casserole, sweet potatoes, turkey, ham, and cranberry sauce. It all smelled and looked incredible. Most of us ate in the kitchen, while a couple sat in the living room to watch the game. I think this is the first holiday I've actually sat at the table for, and it was quite nice. We all talked with one another and enjoyed some great food! The table was nicely set as well.

After everyone finished eating, my aunts and mom cleaned up the kitchen, and some of our family friends ended up stopping by. I showed them my room since they hadn't seen it yet and filled them in on my meeting the Jonas Brothers next week! We all hung out and Mandy filled us in more about wanting a dog. They left after awhile, and we all just continued to hang out. The girls were at the kitchen table, while the guys continued watching football. At one point, I even started working on homework, which is just pathetic, which lead to the inevitable talk about college and my transferring. My aunt was giving me some advice on what I should and my other aunt chimed in about how I need to make connections with other journalists in town to get my foot in the door. They're all great ideas, but I still tend to write them off, and I think the idea of breaking out of my safe little comfortable walls that I've always known scares me, even though it's everything I want. It's all part of growing up, and I guess I'm not ready for that yet...But, it's time. Way past time.

The guys went to visit my grandpa in the hospital, and the rest of us stayed here, just talking at the table. We finally decided to come out to the living room to watch TV and one of the power fuses ended up going out; the TV shut off, the Christmas lights went out, and basically everything else except for the main lights in our house. My aunt and mom fixed everything, so it wasn't quite as dramatic as I thought it was going to be, but it was still something. We came back inside, and ended up watching The X Factor. When that was finished, my aunt left since she had to work today. A little while later, my uncle, dad and cousin returned, then my aunt and uncle left. Nick stayed, and ended up spending the night, which meant my mom and I had to clean out the extra bedroom so he would have somewhere to stay.

Once that was taken care of, my parents, Nick and I ended up playing wii bowling, which was a blast. We cranked up the Christmas tunes(Kenny Roger and Dolly Parton; Celine Dion) and ate some pizza. We were all laughing and making fun of each other, and I was practically putting on my own concert, singing along to all of the songs. I just felt really good. It was one of those nights where I didn't want to be anywhere else, and I wasn't wishing I could be somewhere else or wishing I was doing something else. I was content. But, it also got me to thinking of how different the holidays are now, as all of the grand kids get older...I'm basically the only "kid" left...No one else really comes around much anymore, and it's sad. I guess that's why things feel a bit different, because over the years, people change and we all just sort of move on.

Yesterday was really wonderful. I think it's probably one of the best Thanksgiving's we've had in awhile. It was just a really fun time of being able to spend it with some of the people that are most important to me. I love them all so very much and am so thankful that they're all there for me.

That's all for now! I hope you all had a great holiday :)

November 22, 2012

The Weekend Review

It was another great weekend! Not too much happened, which was nice, but Saturday was mainly getting things together for Thanksgiving, which is coming up extremely soon. I had lunch with my parents, then ran some errands with them; shopping for dinner on Thursday, and getting some other items. I spent the rest of the night watching The Vampire Diaries, then getting dinner with my parents.

Sunday morning, we got up for church as always, and it was a fantastic message, as we finished out the faith series. After, we went to lunch with some family friends, which was hilarious. Our waiter was interesting and was a bit...awkward, so it made things slightly weird in spots. It was great getting to see our friends again and catch one another up on our lives, because we don't see each other very often anymore. The rest of the afternoon was pretty relaxed. I did some homework, while getting distracted by the AMA's red carpet online. I figured, what's really going to help me more in the long run... Theater or studying the art of reporting on the red carpet? You can imagine which one I chose.

That night, I had dinner with my parents at Arby's, then we came home to watch the AMA's. Only to find out that our DVR hadn't recorded the first hour, I think it was. I missed Taylor winning and her performance, and had to watch them later, but the rest of the awards were alright. I'm glad we recorded the second half in order to fast forward through the annoying performances and crap we didn't care about watching. I always love watching the award shows with my mom; I should record our commentary sometime. I think we are quite entertaining.

It was a really nice, calm weekend. It's good to have those! :)


I have been blessed
And I feel like I've found my way
I thank God for all I've been given
At the end of every day
I have been blessed
With so much more than I deserve
To be here with the ones
That love me
To love them so much it hurts
I have been blessed
~Martina McBride~

  You know, I take my life for granted. I find myself complaining about taking out the trash or when my mom just simply asks me to do something, or even griping about homework and how I'm just over all of it. But, then my eyes are opened to kids who don't have clean water or have no shoes to wear or have lost their loved ones because of diseases or natural disasters, yet have the biggest grins on their faces. That puts things into perspective for me. It reminds me that I have so much, and have absolutely no reason to be that way.  So, being that it's that time of the year where we all get overly sentimental, pouring out our feelings like we're a Hallmark movie, I've been trying to truly reflect on my life. I've been thinking about what I have and who is in my life. And I'm finding that sometimes it's hard to put into words just how much I appreciate all that I've been given.

This year, as all the years past, I can't believe how much I have been blessed. God continues to amaze me at what He does in my life. This year, I am thankful for all that I have and all that I don't; unanswered prayers. I know that there's a reason for everything that happens, and I just have to trust in His timing. Until then, I'm learning that I need to be content with all that I have, and there's a lot.

Because I love making lists, I figured it would be easiest to make a list of all of the things that I'm thankful for, even though some of these are duplicates (bear with me):

    1)    My parents: I don't know where I'd be without my parents. They are two of the most selfless people I know. Everything they've practically ever done has been for me, whether it has been putting me in the best private schools, going to concerts, helping me meet the people I admire most in the industry, driving me to hang out with friends, or just showing me love and support over the years. They've always been troopers when it comes to that stuff. They've always been there to make sure that I'm living life to the fullest and am having a good time. We may not always see eye to eye, we may drive each other crazy, but at the same time, I know they're always there to talk to and will always love me. No matter what.
    2)    My friends: No matter how many friends I've had or what group I've been in, I have always felt left out. I've always felt like something was missing or that I was the one who cared too much, while others could care less. And I was the one who was too blind to see it. This year, I'm extremely thankful for knowing that I have a really small group of close friends that I can always count on, whether it's just asking them to say a prayer or venting over the crappy day I've had. My list of people I truly pour my heart out to gets smaller and smaller. But, to the ones that have taken the time with me over the years and have helped grow. THANK YOU. It means more to me than you'll ever know and I love you guys so much. I have had an absolute blast getting to spend so much time with them, whether it was a short road trip or hanging out at church. I truly believe that I owe a big portion to them for my branching out more this year on my own.
    3)    New friends! I feel like this has been the year for new friends, whether it was through school or meeting people at CMA Fest and other events throughout the year. I'm thankful that I have had so many great times with some really incredible people that I never would've known had I not taken chances or put myself out there. Now, I can't imagine what life was like before I had people to gossip about the latest TV shows or music out there. It's nice having people to fan girl with.
    4)     I'm thankful for music, because there is a song or a lyric to describe my every thought and mood. So many talented artists have released music this year, and it has inspired me in a way like never before. Because of my passion and love for music, it has opened up a lot of singing opportunities for me, as well as meeting new people through artists.
    5)    Education. For the first time, I'm really starting to see that my education is going to pay off for me in a big way. I'll be able to transfer to a university next fall, and everything is finally coming together with where I'm at right now. All of the hard work I've been putting into it is finally starting to make a dent and that feels really good. I know how many people out there would love the chance to get to go to school and get and learn what they can. I've been trying to hold onto that idea in those moments when I really just want to give up.
    6)    Extended family! This year, I'm thankful that I've gotten to know some of my extended family even more, like my aunts and uncles. I've always been close with them, but mainly through my parents. I love the fact that I now feel close enough to text them on my own and keep them informed on things that are going on or just see what's up. I'm especially grateful for my aunt's help with my online summer math class. I honestly don't think I would've passed without her. I love all of my family so much, and I'm thankful for all of the moments I've had with each of them this year.
    7)    I'm thankful for the once in a lifetime experiences I've had from things like an Evening with One Tree Hill to show tapings or meet and greets, as cheesy or lame as that sounds. I'm not trying to sound superficial, I genuinely mean that I'm grateful for those opportunities. I don't like doing things in LA just because I can or to let other people know that I can do them, but because of how much I have a passion for the entertainment industry. And always have. I have learned so much from observing behind the scenes action or listening to actors talk about their life in the spotlight, as well as being able to "chat" with some and ask for some of their opinions on Twitter. I seriously think celebs that tweet with their fans are the coolest.
    8)    A house, food, clothes! These are some of the most important things that I really take for granted. Because my family has never really struggled all that much, and I've always had the things that I've needed or wanted, I just always assume that they'll be there. But, as I talked to more people and really observed more of my friends' lives, I realize how good I've honestly had it. That has inspired me to really want to give back to others and to seriously help out all of the people that have helped me.
    9)    Trips! I've been able to do a lot of traveling this year, and I have enjoyed every bit of it. I am so thankful for the great city of Nashville that always feels like home when I visit, and being able to visit South Carolina/Wilmington for the first time ever. The memories that I have with my family and being able to see where One Tree Hill was filmed are things that I will never forget as long as I live.
10) God's grace. I've been a Christ follower basically since birth, but it wasn't until this year that I really started learning how God's grace works. There has been so much healing in my life, and knowing that God forgives me, regardless of what I've done in the past is everything. I'm thankful for my relationship with God, and how far it has come. I have a long way to go, I know, and it's going to take a lot of work, but I'm willing to keep at it. My relationship with Him (or lack of, at times) affects everything I do. I'm learning that I don't have to control everything, and it's best to just give it up to God, and let Him handle it. He never ceases to amaze me.

I could go on and on about everything I have to be thankful for, but we'd be here all day and night. I feel so at peace with everything I've been given, and everything that is taking place in my life right at this very moment. Instead of sitting here wishing I was here or there, I'm content with the fact that I am where I am and I have what I have. The Lord is so good to me and I know that He is going to provide, and I have nothing else to wish for.

Tomorrow, I can't wait to be in the company of my loved ones and simply just be. That's what this holiday is all about; simplicity. It isn't about all of the hubbub of the season or the decorations or the trimmings. It's a holiday that's all about what you already have, not desiring more. Yesterday, my grandpa was admitted into the hospital, and as far as I know, he's going to be okay, but he's in a lot of pain. It'll be the first Thanksgiving dinner at our house he hasn't made it to in quite awhile, so our get together will be a bit smaller, and it hit me. You just never know what can happen; you don't see things like this coming, nor do you plan for them. Even if you do, you never have it scripted just right anyway. All of those moments I've taken for granted of him being here for the holidays, or me being too busy getting ready to sit down to spend time with him came flooding back. Usually I'm so wrapped up in my phone or can't shake the chaos of thoughts in my mind.  I don't want to keep making those same mistakes. I want to fully be aware of spending time with my family, and not miss what's right in front of my eyes. I don't want to think back and live with regret. I want to look back on those moments and smile because I remember every detail, every smile, ever laugh, and every word spoken. I intend to do just that.

I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving and take time to just unplug from the rest of the world and focus on the people that you love the most and that love you right back. Don't worry about what could've been or what might be. Just be here and now. I'll be trying to take my own advice as well.

That's all for now,

November 20, 2012

Fall Day

Fall Day

Vintage tee

J brand skinny jeans

Buckle boots

Leather handbag
$250 -

Marc by Marc Jacobs marc jacob
$64 -

Miso peace sign jewelry
$9.53 -

Casual Day; Out and About

Inspiration Board

Inspiration Board

These are some of my favorite things/things that I'm inspired by at the moment. 

1. Bethany Joy Lenz is just fantastic! She is an old soul and I am obsessed with her blog. Can't wait for new posts in December.

2. Antiques! I really love antiques, and right now I'm especially into old trunks and jewelry boxes. I think they're just so neat and can dress up any space, whether you have a lot of room or not.

3. I'm finally watching more Gossip Girl and absolutely love it! I love Penn Badgley, and he basically makes the show for me.

4. Holiday drinks at Starbucks. YUM!

5. Red by Taylor Swift. I just can't get enough of this CD. Every time I play it, I'm inspired to write or to people watch at a cafe.

6. Journals! Being a "writer", I tell myself I can never have too many journals, and it's true. I can always find something to do with them, whether it's scrapbooking my favorite articles or clips from magazines, jotting down lyrics or my favorite quotes. I found some really awesome eco friendly notebooks at Target that come 3 to a pack, and love them.

7. The Vampire Diaries. Yes, it's still an obsession all of these months later, because it just keeps getting better and better. Plus, DELENA is finally happening. 

8. Good Food Tastes Good! My mom and I tried these chips the other day from the grocery store, and they turned out to be the most amazing things on the planet. We tried the sweet potato chips, but they also had lime. The best thing about them is that they're better for you and you don't feel like a fatty after eating them, which is always nice.

9. Thanksgiving! There are a lot of preparations going into Thanksgiving obviously, and I'm inspired by that! It gives me a chance for helping out with hosting duties, and gets me into that mind set of truly focusing on being thankful for everything I have.

10. Ian Somerhalder :) He just seems like THE nicest guy on the planet! I've heard so many wonderful things about him, and I just really want to meet him. I love that he seems to care so much about people, animals and the environment; just making our world a better place overall. He inspires me! 

That's all for now,

Thanksgiving Outfit Idea #1

Movie Monday

Most people do "Music Monday", but I decided to do a "Movie Monday" in honor of all the holiday themed movies on TV right now. Saturday night, I watched the Lifetime movie, High School Holiday Reunion. It's your typical cheesy holiday Lifetime movie, but I still found it ridiculously cute.

The synopsis is that Georgia comes home after being the assistant to a fashion designer, though she'd always wanted to be one, to find out that there is a reunion at her old high school. Everyone she went to high school with seems to have moved on with their lives and she feels like she's staying exactly the same. Georgia is still stuck in high school in that sense and wants to get back together with her old boyfriend from high school...Or does she find out what she's been missing out on all this time? If you haven't seen it yet, be sure to check out this clip.

Jonathan Bennett (Mean Girls) is in the movie, and I found him extremely likable and adorable as the best friend character, so that made me cling to the movie even faster.

That's all for now,

November 19, 2012

Getting In The Christmas Spirit

Getting In The Christmas Spirit

Getting In The Christmas Spirit by nashchick09 on Polyvore

Usually my family doesn't listen to Christmas music until the day after Thanksgiving, because we like to enjoy each season that we're in. But, I'm getting my CD's and Itunes playlists ready, because once it hits, we listen to it nonstop. Usually until the point of being sick of it. And it is wonderful and magical. How can you honestly not love it?! Christmas music instantly just makes everything better and gives me warm and fuzzies. Needless to say...I can't wait until Friday.

A Vampire Diaries Appreciation Post

This cast is incredible. When I'm bored, I look up pictures of them for the heck of it! And since I won't be getting a new episode this week, this will hold me over for the new episode. The end.

The Rory Gilmore Way Of Life

You know, I was starting to think I had everything figured out. Things are finally starting to line up with school; I only have one more class to take after this semester, then I can transfer out to the state college here in town. It's definitely not my first choice, but that's an entirely different story altogether. I applied to CSUB, and now I just wait to hear back from them. But, while I was waiting, I talked to a friend that brought up some good points about Fresno Pacific, another campus here in town. It's a Christian curriculum, and another big selling point is that it's a small campus, which is something I've been used to my entire life. I've always gone to private schools, except for the community college right now, but it's small and I really like that it's more personal in classes.

I decided to check into FPU and found that they seem to have a good communications program, which is my major. I was really starting to get my heart set on that, when I started researching prices. When I realized just how expensive it is, my heart sank...And I'm back to square one. I was trying to get opinions of people who have been to both schools to get their views, but most of them just said that I should go away. Believe me, I would if I could. I always thought, in the amazing little imagination that I have, that I'd be able to go away and live the ideal college life that I've always seen portrayed on TV, but things are a little different in my actual world. I don't have the money for school, let alone books and rent. Therefore, I'm stuck at home and settling for the last college of my choices, but really the only on my list.

I guess I should check into scholarships like my friend from church has been telling me the last year or so, but maybe I'm making excuses as to why I shouldn't. It's amazing how I can want nothing more than to get out of here and make something of myself in order to live out my dreams, yet I'm too scared to push myself to get to that point. Maybe because I don't have anyone really pushing me to get out and do amazing things, I feel like I'm doing perfectly fine where I'm at now. And I'm not, I'm really not okay with it. One part of me is thinking that this is a good decision and I should wait, because I still have a lot of growing up to do. I've barely started doing things for myself and I don't even have my license yet. The other part of me is saying some of the best things in life happen when you don't think and just jump on them. I've prayed about it a little, but probably not as much as I should, and I feel just as confused.

I've had a few breakdowns lately about life and college, more mentally than actually saying anything about it out loud, but I'd like to call this the Rory Gilmore way. Every time she had a mental breakdown, she always ended up pulling off something really amazing...So, maybe it's a fuel starter for me to go after what I really want. I really want some clarification on where to go next, though. Heck, I still have to pick out a class for next semester. It feels like everything is just overlapping, which is making it extremely hard to focus on any one decision. Hmm...This growing up stuff is sure something else.

I'll be sure to keep you posted on this exciting journey I am embarking on.

That's all for now,

This Is Me

Every once in awhile, I've decided to do a random facts about me or getting to know me segment, in case I've gained new followers or readers. So, here it goes.

Hi, I'm Shelby. I'm 20. A Christ follower; living my life for Jesus and letting Him take the wheel when it comes to my plans. I'm still so far from where I'd like to be in my walk with God, but I'm better than I used to be. I'm an only child, who has been really spoiled, and now I am willing to admit that. All of those things you've read about only children are probably true with me, and I'm not trying to paint that in a good or bad way, I'm just being honest here. I have big goals and dreams, and I plan on changing the world someday. I will leave my footprint on the earth, letting people know I was here and that my life mattered. If I had to compare myself to a fictional character, it would be Rory Gilmore of Gilmore Girls. I don't think there will ever be anyone else like that where I will relate in so many ways. I talk about this a lot because that's how connected we are, she's like my TV soul sister.

I am a daydreamer by nature; I always think about what life could be, rather than always just taking things for what they are. I guess, that's probably why I decided to become a writer, because I can create my own characters and in a way it's like everything I want to happen in my head, comes alive on paper. I have a really hard time focusing because of that. I'm usually in Santa Monica, Nashville or South Carolina...So, I tend to miss out on things I should be paying attention to. I've gotten much better about it. Reality is far more interesting that daydreams anyway.

Music is my life. From the time I was at least five years old, even just a simple song on the radio, has always been able to touch me in some unexplainable way. There is always a song or lyric that helps me process whatever I'm dealing with. Whether it has been a death in the family, losing a friend, feeling completely alone, being excited and loving life, or just trying to figure out where my life is going. It's my passion. Like Taylor Swift says, its been there for me when people haven't always been. I don't know how I would deal with things if music didn't exist. It's always part of the "healing process" for me.

I compare practically everything in my life back to a reference made on a TV show or a line from my favorite song. Sometimes I'm even so obsessed with a fictional couple that I make playlists for them in my itunes, but I'm sure I'm not the only one right? I love being part of fandom families; I have made so many friends because of shows and artists. I am a major pop culture junkie. I was a fan girl before there was ever a term for it, and I am going to school with the intentions of being an entertainment journalist. I want to work for E! News someday, or do fun segments for The Today Show or possibly even work for a magazine. My friends have always come to me when they're curious about anything involving Hollywood. And that's always a proud moment for me. Everyone needs a catch phrase, like "Seacrest out," or "Be kind to one another." I need something like that, but so far I'm lacking in those skills. Anyone have some clever ideas?

I have a creative soul, and I am fascinated by all processes involving those endeavors, whether it's painting, fashion, writing, baking, filming, taking pictures, or playing music. Sometimes I'm a little indecisive in that department, because I want to try it all. I would love to sing, act, direct, write, mess around with graphic design, have my own TV show and whatever else is out there. In the meantime, I make my own videos, sing, write, collaborate with friends, blog, and try to let my creative juices flow whenever I possibly can. I'm inspired by just about everything around me; people, nature, couples, love, family, and friends. The world really is a beautiful place when we stop to admire it, and take the time to appreciate what God has done and is doing.

I'm happiest and I truly feel I'm at my best when I'm in the company of friends and family. In the presence of loved ones, is where I feel most beautiful. They've seen me at my worst, but continue to put up with me regardless, and I love them for that. I'm really big on gatherings and festive get togethers because it gives me warm and fuzzy feelings, and makes me realize what's truly important in life. I get so caught up in my own head, and all these tiny details that don't matter. It's refreshing to unwind with them every once in awhile. I love watching shows with big families or close groups of people to make up for it when I can't be with my favorite people, like Friends or Full House. It makes me feel like I'm with my family, even when we're miles and miles apart.

My idea of a perfect day would be to curl up in bed, while it's raining outside with a cup of hot tea. There would be a marathon of chick flicks or a great day to catch up on one of my favorite shows. I would do a little writing, daydreaming, and listening to music.

I absolutely love coffee; it helps me through most days. I'm obsessed with school supplies, but could do without the school part. I like anything old fashioned and vintage looking, because of the story it tells. If I ever get a tattoo, I would get a cross like Demi Lovato's on my wrist. I really want a dog; he will be a border collie, and I will name him Luke (after Luke Danes and Lucas Scott). I practically collect magazines. I own way too many sweatshirts and purses. I don't care to shop for shoes, yet I have a TON of them. I really think I should have been born in the south; I'm a southern girl at heart. There's nowhere else like it. I could easily be a vegetarian; I'm not that crazy about meat most of the time, except for chicken and a burger every once in awhile. The top three on my list of people to meet would be Ian Somerhalder, Sophia Bush, and Katy Perry-In that particular order. And if I could spend the holidays with any celebrities, I would choose the Osmonds, Taylor Swift, and Zooey Deschanel; they're all extremely cheerful and festive people, and they would really get the party started with some tunes, baking or putting on a show for everyone, which would be quite enjoyable. No one gets quite as festive as those guys.

I admire so many people that use their platform of acting or singing for the good of others, and just for their extreme talent. They are the people that are positive and want to believe in the best of the world and others. They practice what they preach, and they believe in it wholeheartedly. They are world changers, thought shakers, and dream makers. I might not agree with everything they do, but I believe that they have good hearts, and that still counts for something. These are people that really exude a positive lifestyle and live with a purpose. They use their talents for a bigger purpose, and I really love that. These are my biggest inspirations and people I really look up to:
    •    Carrie Underwood
    •    Taylor Swift
    •    Ian Somerhalder/Nina Dobrev
    •    Sophia Bush
    •    Bethany Joy Lenz
    •    Nick Jonas
    •    Colton Dixon
    •    Austin Nichols
    •    Giuliana Rancic

I want to find my soul mate and best friend. I've never had a reason to believe in a "true love" but I hope to find someone who will change that for me. I've only ever had one real boyfriend, and I've never been kissed. I feel so Drew Barrymore saying that, but it's true. That's why I'm a little more invested in fictional relationships, because at least those have a better shot at working out most of the time. I am a hopeless romantic, and want to believe that I'll find that one person that changes my entire world. Makes me a better person. Accepts me for who I am, but brings out the best in me. I want to settle down and have a family, and do all the "mom-like" things, helping out at school, and getting involved in the classrooms. I'll leave the homework to dad. As I get older, I see that I really want those things in life.

I'm just me. I used to think that I had to have everything all figured out and know exactly what was coming next. But, I'm starting to realize that maybe that's part of the fun; figuring it out one day at a time, and I guess that's really all you can do. Otherwise you miss out on most of your life, because you're too busy worrying about worrying. It's a lot more fun to take life as it comes.

That's all for now,

Things To Do While You're Sick/Stressed:

Ah! Fall...Thanksgiving...Winter...Christmas...New Year's...What a wonderfully awesome, yet stressful time of the year. This is my favorite time of the year, as it is for so many other people. But, it is also a really busy time of the year with planning family festivities, finals and other unexpected turns like getting sick. Here are a few ways I like to deal with stress or boredom while sick:

    I watch a lot of Netflix; there's nothing like watching your favorite shows or getting obsessed with one you've never seen before. If nothing else, at least it gets your mind off of the problem for a little while. But, you know what makes it even better? A cup of hot tea...No matter what the weather is like outside, it's just proven that it instantly cheers you up.

Talking to my best friends always picks me up when I'm feeling down, even if they don't necessarily have the words to say anything profound or tell me what I need to hear. They always listen to my rants, and just being able to let go of everything without being judged is an incredible feeling. Or even just watching the show can make me feel better, because I feel like my friends are right there with me. 

Bike riding is probably the number one stress reliever for me! There is NOTHING better than putting on my headphones to listen to something really fun and upbeat, while enjoying nature. Nothing else clears my mind out quite like a nice ride around my neighborhood. 

I love losing myself in a book; getting close to the characters and even becoming one of the characters as the story goes along, feeling my heart break, crying tears of joy or sadness or rejoicing in the end, because the happy ending has come along.

I also love to get really artsy. I tune everything else out, put on a good movie or crank up some tunes, while cutting, gluing and making collages of some sort. Or, I'll grab my journal and laptop and just write for hours...Believe me, it is possible.

It never hurts to look at pictures of Ian Somerhalder and border collie's. I mean, just look at those faces. My day is instantly better having seen them, and puts me in a better mood. Try it; you're welcome. 

I've found out that watching Ellen also lifts your spirits too. There have been many meltdowns over the years about school and life, but watching Ellen, whether she's making Amy do some crazy thing in a haunted house, giving things away to people who really deserve them or scaring Kellie Pickler...Somehow she just makes you feel at ease, like there is still some good left in this world, and things get better, even if you're stuck in a tough place.

The last and probably the best thing that I can do when I'm stressed out is spend some quality quiet time with God. When I finally stop freaking out over whatever lame situation I'm in or worrying about whatever needs to get done and just give it to God, I feel so much better. Is the problem gone? No. But, I have learned to not always want to control the situation and to just let some things go. I always feel at peace after diving into the word and talking to God, rather than just stewing over it in my mind. 

That's all for now,

What are some of your best stress relievers?