February 28, 2014

{it's raining, it's pouring}

Late last night, the wind started kicking up and howling into the middle of the night. It was supposed to be raining all day today, which had me feeling all kinds of giddy inside. There's something so romantic and poetic about this weather that I think a lot of people tend to ignore.

However, I woke up this morning, surprised to see that the sun was shining and it was warm out, which made me question the sweatshirt and jeans I had chosen to wear. I skipped my first class this morning, because there wasn't much I would be missing, and it seemed like the perfect day to stay home and watch movies with a hot cup of tea. Those are my favorite kind of days.

After running a few errands with my mom and having lunch, the sky turned back to gray and started raining around the same time that I had to go to my editor's meeting for the newspaper. The rain was pouring down, so I pulled my hood on over my head and tried to stay under the awnings while walking to our classroom. Even inside, you could hear the wind and rain coming down, and it was COLD. Well, I mean for California standards it was cold. We're wimps and don't do well with "winter" weather.

Our meeting was short and sweet, which was nice. But, I was dreading the moment of coming home, since I have a big to-do list of things that need to be done by Sunday night/Monday morning.

As for the past couple of weeks...I'm over it. It has been extremely hard to focus and keep up with everything I have due, from scheduling interviews, writing papers, working on two presentations, etc. I feel like I'm kind of starting to lose it. I feel like I just don't have the energy.  I just don't feel like I'm doing enough. I feel like I'm out of my mind in all honesty. But, instead of rushing through the quarter, I'm taking it as it comes. I'm embracing the struggles, the annoyances, the "what's going to happen next?" I don't want to know anymore. I just want to get through this week first, HA. HA. There have been trying times, but I'm praying it will lead to something really beautiful in the end.

I really just want spring break! I want to watch YouTube videos all day, write more for me with stories I'm working on, read, and honestly, to wake up without my heart POUNDING in my chest dreading the day and wondering what surprise project is going to throw me off will be nice.


Then, I'm free....Only for one week, and it's back to the grind. DEEP BREATH AND BREAK.

That's all for now,
Shelby Parker