August 19, 2011

This is real, this is me...

For the first time in my life, I feel happy with who I am, and I'm comfortable with the way I look. I'm done trying to impress people, trying to watch what I say for fear I might offend them for whatever reason, and I'm not trying to look perfect in order for mr right to look my way, because I'm far from it. I don't care. If it happens, it happens... Until then, I'm just happy being me. I'm starting to find my own voice and I love the way it feels!

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Getting A Little Too Comfortable with Life

I wish I was more of a risk taker, I've always played the game of life safely. Ive been the quiet girl that doesn't speak out much, doesn't do anything crazy. I feel like i've stayed that way my entire life. That way I don't fail, don't make a fool of myself, and I don't have to be prepared for the unexpected. I'm a planner, I like to know exactly what's going to happen! But, lately I've started thinking what kind of life is that?
God has so much more in store for our lives, and I tend to take the safe route and miss out on opportunities that would be really amazing! Why? Because I'm too afraid.
I was Skyping with my uncles last night for our weekly talk with the family, and one of them mentioned the pastor, Francis Chan, and author of Crazy Love. My other uncle looked up some videos on YouTube, and Francis was talking about growing comfortable. We don't want take risks or do anything crazy for God, but that's not what is intended for us. We were meant to live for so much more, and that's when it hit me... I have grown too comfortable not only in life, but in my walk with God, because I'm afraid of being called out or of failing.
I have big dreams that God has placed in my heart, but then I'm too lazy or too afraid to do anything about it. Well, today, I'm going to stop putting things off. I'm going to challenge myself to do the hard things and to grow more, to be who God created me to be. I want to live a life that's worth living, and make a difference! I want to be able to look in the mirror, and be proud of who I am!

That's all for now,
Shelby <3

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August 18, 2011

My "Aha" Moment, if you will!

The reality that it's never going to happen is finally sinking in....
Truth is, I guess I knew it all along, but just wanted to hold onto that glimmer of hope ….yeah.

My Life in Photos This Week

Started out on a diet with my mom; eating fruit and soup...but didn't last with it this time.

Gilmore Girls and Starbursts. Nothing better!

Obsession: this mint color nail polish!! :D

My cat being so sweet and laying with me


Trace Adkins' golf cart

One of his buses

We hung out in the parking lot, waiting for him to come out or something to happen...nothing ever did.

Our radio station
Me in my backyard...just hanging out
This was the color of the sky! I didn't realize it was that blue...beautiful
Peanut butter yogurt! YUMMY!

August 15, 2011

Lizzie McGuire is Pregnant ....well, Hilary Duff is!

When I found out the news yesterday, along with everyone else, I could not believe it! All these years, we've known her as Lizzie McGuire; she has been a "friend" to us all growing up, teaching us how to find bras, deal with boys, annoying family, and of course, just the day to day life as being a teenager. We've seen her grow up into this beautiful women, get married, and she announced yesterday, that her and her husband will in fact be expecting a baby. It's so weird! I am so excited for her and Mike, I'm sure they're going to make incredible parents.
She has always been so normal, in a world of teen stars that have gone down hill very quickly! It's good to see that she has been able to work, but that she has a life outside of Hollywood, and that's why people like her so much. She's relatable :)

The first photo of her since announcing. This was her yesterday!

Hilary and Mike shopping in Malibu Saturday afternoon.

Eden's Edge concert

This band is amazing! I couldn't stop listening to their EP, and I when I found out they'd be playing a show here in town, I HAD to go! They're awesome :)

Vacation Video

Here's a short video I made of some things we did on vacation :)

Includes the beach, LA, and Las Vegas!

Back to School Shopping-Sunday/Monday

Yesterday, I went to LA with my parents, my aunt, and my uncle. We met up with a friend of my dad's and uncle's, and his wife! We had lunch at a Mexican restaurant our family has been going to for years, even before I was born. It's pretty tasty!
chips and salsa. I was at my own table, so I got these to myself ;)
After lunch, the guys went to a Dodger game, and the girls went shopping at the Glendale Galleria! It was so much fun to just get out of town (again) for a few hours. I needed to be with my family; they can get me to laugh like no one else can.
On the car ride home, my uncle was singing along to, "I Love You This Big" by Scotty McCreery, and then my dad wanted to hear Lauren Alaina's song. We were all singing, making hand motions and acting crazy, it was great! I love my family so much, and it's in these simple moments of just singing to a song on the radio or having a night at home that I realize just how much I love them, and how different my life would be if they weren't in it. I'm so blessed to have them in my life! So many times I get caught up in material things, and that I have to do this and that to be happy...but when I spend time with my family, like we did yesterday, it puts things in perspective

I got a couple shirts, bracelets, and a purse!

Marc Jacobs look-a-like purse, like Lorelai's on Gilmore Girls! MUCH cheaper too :)

Today, when my mom and I went grocery shopping, I picked up the basic school supplies, like Notebooks, paper, pencils, etc. I got to thinking about how funny it is that back to school shopping used to be such a big deal. I used to plan new outfits for the entire week, and make sure I had the coolest supplies, because who wanted solid colors? I remember wanting everything to look perfect. It's weird how things change. I miss that excitement of the night before school, waiting to wear my first day of school outfit, get all the new papers and rules for class (I was a weird kid), see my friends, meet new classmates, and hear about what was in store for the year.

My books!
College is an exciting time; I've been able to do a lot of things I wouldn't be able to if I was still in high school.  I've met a lot of great friends out there, and I've had good teachers as well. I guess this is all just part of growing up. It's tough, but it has to be done. Life is all about change, and how you react to it, so my goal is to make the most of each situation I'm faced with!

That's all for now,

Do you guys have any back to school memories?

Growing Pains

Alright, while I'm a big fan of the late 80s show, Growing Pains, that's not what this is about. This is about the inevitability of growing up. I can't say that I'm really a fan of it. Okay, I am, because it can be pretty empowering, but there are a lot of aspects about it that just scare me. I have no idea what's ahead, I don't even think I know what I want anymore. When I was younger, I thought I had everything figured out. I thought I was going to be a singer/actress, I'd be on tour by the time I hit this age, and married to Justin Timberlake by now. I guess God has other plans...LOL. Well, I've always known what area I'd like to work in, but now it's a matter of narrowing it down, and I feel like I have no idea of where to begin. I want to be a journalist, but like I've said there are other areas that really interest me too. Question is...Do I have what it takes?

It's overwhelming. I lie in bed at night (A LOT) thinking about the future, what lies ahead, and how I have no clue, except for the fact that I'm really good at freaking myself out. I'm going to school, but who knows when I'll be finished with my basics? I feel like it's going to end up taking a lot longer than I realized. I want to get out there and start my career, but instead I'm at community college (which is great, I love the school, the classes, and the people), but sometimes it's just a little discouraging. I want to do something with writing, entertainment, reporting, etc. That much I do know! But, it's just a matter of figuring out what is attainable now, and how do I get into something like that. I think that has always been the problem. I'm a dreamer, by nature. I've always aimed for the sky; the impossible. I don't want to settle for a job that I'm not happy in or have no desire to be doing, just because it pays the bills. I know that might sound crazy, and it is, but that's what is in my heart. Whatever I end up doing I want to make a difference, that's my goal.

I know it will all work out in time; God always works things out. Now, it's my turn to take advantage of the opportunities that come my way, work hard, and see what path God wants me to take. I have to wait for the right doors to open at the right time. PATIENCE (a concept I seem to have a hard time grasping). I'm open to anything. I think the problem is that I've been so set in my ways, that I'm missing out on what He's trying to direct me to, and here I am worrying/stressing for nothing.

Sorry if I've rambled and made no sense at all, it's late, and I've just been doing a lot of thinking!

That's all for now,