Most of us have heard the saying, "Be yourself" all of our lives, and it sounds simple. You can be whoever you want to be, so why not act like that all the time? But, then you get older and there are more pressures to act a certain way, laugh a certain way, and agree with things that you might not be okay with. It's hard to stand against that when so many others around you might be thinking differently. I've seen it all before: laughing at jokes you might not normally, cussing when you might not usually, etc. And I think at some point or another we've all pretended to be something we're not...because we were trying to figure out who we ARE. I think that's normal...but you have to be careful about not straying so far off track that you forget who you were altogether.
And of course, there are going to be those people that you were really close with, and they change into someone you don't know anymore. That's hard to see. We're all growing up and some are doing it in other ways that you might not. You think about who you used to be, and wonder what if?
Let's just say growing up is tricky.