Tonight at Bible study we focused on our families and more specifically the relationship we have with our parents. I'm not going to go into detail or share what went on, but basically we've all been broken. We've all been hurt by people we trusted, we've all been let down, and I'm not just talking about our families. That is where most of it starts or comes from, but we get it out in the world as well. I used to base my happiness on people; when they were mad at me, I fell apart. I was too nice, and let people somewhat walk all over me...and I let it turn me bitter in the end. And finally it hit me one day...there are always going to be people that let you down or break your trust and you have to find out how to be okay with or WITHOUT them.
No matter what will come and go in our lives, God will always be a constant. He is patient with us when our relationship with Him isn't where it should be, He loves us unconditionally, and He sees our beauty when others don't. I've learned to rely on Him for my happiness. Am I where I should be? No. But, I've come a lot further with it than I used to be. I still end up relying a little too much on people at times, and I'm working on that, because I want to become more independent. I guess it just feels safe for the time being...because when you get to be on your own, it can get a little lonely, and I've felt enough of that. Whether you're close with your parents or not, just know that you're God's child and He will NEVER leave you alone. He has promised us that, and He keeps all of His promises.
Whatever the season is I'm going through, I know I'll be able to handle it. It's not always easy, when you're not seeing the results you want to happen taking place exactly when you want them to, but it teaches you patience. There's something in particular that I've been praying about for awhile, and nothing has happened with it just yet, but I'm holding onto my faith because I know God knows what He's doing. There are times I get restless and wonder why, believe me...but it all goes back to that little word, faith. It's easy to feel like God has forgotten about us when things aren't happening the way we think they should, but just give it time.
"I've picked you. I haven't dropped you. Don't panic. I'm with you. There's no need to fear for I'm your God. I'll give you strength. I'll help you. I'll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you." ~Isaiah 41:9-10
That's all for now,