October 16, 2014

Real Life Is better than the Fairytales

"Once upon a time, happier ever after. The stories we tell are the stuff of dreams. Fairy tales don't come true. Reality is much stormier. Much murkier. Much scarier. Reality it’s so much more interesting than living happily ever after."
~Meredith Grey~

What do you do when reality turns out nothing like you imagined? Nothing like the pretty pictures you wrote about in great detail to your journal. Nothing like the daydreams you always had in your mind. Nothing like the discussions you had with your best friends for years.

I think most often in those moments, our lives can go one of two ways. I think sometimes the things you were dreaming end up being even better than you ever could have imagined. You can touch them, feel them, taste them, and oh, they are so much sweeter and so vibrant. It's more colorful than the fantasies, it's bigger than something you can explain on paper or even capture in a video. 

Other times, it can break your heart (at least at first) when you see that God had a different plan for you. It makes you question your prayers. Should I have asked for this or that instead? I don't know about this new direction that I'm taking. Is this thing actually from God or is this just me getting ahead of myself? But, then later on you can often see that when that thing didn't happen, it was also a blessing in disguise. 

There are a lot of things in my life that I keep moving forward with and praying for, but they're still big fat question marks in front of me. Usually, it has to do with my dreams of moving to Nashville and finding "the one" that I'm going to spend the rest of my life with. I don't take either of those lightly and are something that I consult the Creator of the Universe about a lot. I have all of these visions about how I think the rest of my life should go - I get  pretty creative, so my daydreams are very specific, down to some of the smallest details. And while I know that God is a God of big dreams, I can't help but wonder if some of the sudden things that have found their way in the middle of my path are tests or truly meant for me right now. We always have free will, but I still believe in following a set plan that God has for me. Holding out for the absolute best, not just giving in because the waiting is getting to long. Or there's someone who's nice and is good to talk to, but you're a little lonely, and it seems harmless. But, maybe it's just the beginning of something that isn't meant for you.

Meredith Grey is spot on when she says that reality is so much more interesting than living happily ever after. Because you experience more pain in the real world and things aren't quite so one-dimensional. But, when the good things happen, you can rejoice so much more than those princesses in the castles ever could; they didn't know what else was out there.

Keeping with the theme of unexpected things and love.... I often wonder about how the meeting with my future husband is going to go. I'm hoping for that initial attraction and spark, like I've heard so many stories about. That's the way I've always imagined it. I mean, is love meant to be confusing, where you're questioning whether this is right? Constantly wondering whether you're missing the signs or going down a different path than God had planned for you.


That's all for now,

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