Trust

You try to handle it all on your own
But when will you learn?
That you need someone to hold you through the night?
I was trying to be there for you
But all you do is push me away
We were gonna get through this thing together
But you didn't want me to stay
So I walked out
Cuz you needed to do some things for you
Just know that I'll be there waiting

Everyone needs someone to lean on in the rain
Everyone needs someone to help them through the pain
If you'd just knock that wall down and let me in
I can try to make things okay again
But you just have to learn...to trust

You drive everyone away that you care about
Cause you're afraid of being hurt again
If you ever want to really love someone
You're gonna have to get over it
We can make it work
But only if we're in this together

Whenever you need me
I'll be by your side
I'll be the one to hold you when you cry
And I'll be the one holding you to get you through the night

~Shelby Nicole

California Sky

I go from place to place
Always looking for something different
Want to try new things
Meet other people
Out with the old and in with the new
Seems to be my motto
I want to fall in love with another city
Be taken aback
And feel the excitement
Of the first time exploring
But something stops me every time

There ain't nothing like this California sky

There ain't nothing like the palm trees swaying in the breeze
The lights of Hollywood
Nothing like the sun in the summer
Or all the hot spots in town abuzz with laughter
What I love most is just driving around
Under this California sky

I could travel the world
And not feel the way I do when I'm in California
It's where I belong
My heart will always be here
No matter the love I have for other states I've been
Cuz there ain't nothing like this California sky

Until Then (An Original Poem)

I'm not the girl to speak my mind so easily
I'm a little timid and guys I like scare me
For rejection and not being the girl he wanted
Are always at the front of my mind
So I stay close to the girls
And keep my heart on guard
Praying soon for the right one to come along shortly
To look past the shyness and coyness
That I sometimes put out there

Wish I could say all the words that I need to say to you
Clear my chest of this mess
That I'm becoming
Because of the hold on me that love has
And I wish you could see
What I pray for us to end up becoming

I believe that you were made for me
But, Lord before I fall too hard
Help me to really think this through
And show me what to do
My heart yearns for what you think is best
And I have a way of falling for an idea
Running with it as far as I can
Without a hint of reality; getting too attached
Afraid of only being hurt in the end

Let me be okay with whatever the outcome
Whether I'm right, whether I'm wrong
Show me how to be strong regardless
The only thing I need in this life is You
Because things might not turn out as I've imagined
And I don't want to get my heart broken
I am fragile and easy to break

Someday at the right time
The right guy will come along
There will be no questions or doubts in my mind
When he asks me for my hand...
It could still happen with the one I picture in my mind
But I'm not about to get my hopes up quickly
For I know that might not be the case

He has to have your heart
And love You more than me
Be strong, courageous
The protector of his family
He has to have dreams and goals in mind
Supporting mine as well
I hope he's out there somewhere
On bended knee praying for me
As I've done about him all these years

Until then
I will sit here and wait patiently
Living my life and going for my dreams
There's so much around me
That I want to experience first
When the time is right
It will happen
And until then...
I will wait

<3

~Shelby Nicole