A Letter To You

You make time for everyone else, and you do the things you really want to. Apparently, I just don't fit into that list anymore, and I've learned to accept that. It used to really tear me apart; I felt unwanted, lonely, and dwelled on the thought that I didn't mean as much to you as I thought I did. I thought it was my fault.  But, I got tired of trying to figure out whether you really cared, because you'd say a lot of things but never follow through. And then I wondered if you were just saying the things you thought I needed to hear. I've finally let go of trying to figure out the puzzle, and am accepting things for what they are.
                                                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
We had some really amazing times, I'm not trying to ruin or  and I'm sure there will still be more in the future, but as we get older things change a little. It happens. I know now it's no one's fault, but it sucks either way. I know that no matter what happens, we'll still always have each other but things might not always be like they were "back when." But, instead of going back to what we wish we'd had, we just have to be content with what we had and what we have right now. Knowing that no matter what, we'll always be friends who are more like family. No matter storm has come our way, we've tackled it together, and I truly believe that will always be the case. We have a bond that can never be completely broken. 
                                                         ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Just know that I think about you all the time and I pray for you. I wish you nothing but the best, and that you'll be successful wherever you end up in life. 


With love,
Shelby <3

Today's Inspiration

We are all a little weird, & life's a little weird, & when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them & fall in mutual weirdness & call it love♥(: 
-- Dr. Seuss

You,Me, and Charlie website!

Joel Osteen

I hope you all have a wonderful Friday and a blessed weekend :)

January 26

Foggy morning!

The Quad area

Today was kind of exhausting and draining; it didn't help that I wasn't in the cheeriest of moods either. I didn't read my daily devotion or Bible reading like I usually do, and I think that's where everything was thrown off. So, I had breakfast, and went to geography, where I took a quiz and we watched the world's longest video on lightning. It was interesting, but after awhile it was.....boring. It was one of those 80s videos where everyone looks really cheesy; it was also narrated by Al Roker, just an FYI. Class got out a little later than usual today, so I just ran straight to Sociology.
It was a really good class today! We talked about discrimination and stratification. It also tied into last night's renewal service a little...the way we believe lies about ourselves because of things people have spoken to us and about us. Then we moved onto inequality in race and gender, and how each have different roles. We watched a couple videos, and class was dismissed.

My mom and I ran to Wal-Mart to get a few things!  Found these lyric jewelry pieces! Love them :)

Planner I bought and covered with cheetah duct tape :)

I ran with my mom to their tax guy's office, and boy was that entertaining. He has stories about all sorts of things, mainly involving food and travel. He was telling me all of these places I should go, like Germany. I was really fascinated by it all actually; it inspired me. I want to look up all sorts of blogs and pictures on travel and food, and start making a list of all these places I want to go and try. It'd be fun to grab some friends and just be spontaneous. I think it would really be fun to do an blog experiment with that.

Tonight, we had choir practice for Sunday's set! It went really good and we were done in about an hour...so not much to report there, other than I'm really looking forward to Sunday! :) I came home, ate dinner, watched American Idol, finished up some homework, and now I'm starting the first season of Dawson's Creek. Also, I'm really loving all the 90's music I had forgotten about on this show! HAHA.

So glad the weekend is here; should be another great one!

That's all for now,
Shelby
xoxox

Today's Inspiration

"I Can't Wait"  (I caught the end of this song and fell in love with it)

The way you curse when we're in traffic
A million flavors of your chapstick
The way that you keep my heart captive

The Journey concert in AC
Remember we sang faithfully?
I still got that old hotel room key

This is the way I feel

'Cause I can't wait for you to be my wife
To live this life together
And I won't let you go
I need you to know
That you are my heart, forever
And on and on and on

The way you like to sing my songs
You always know when something's wrong
The way you say you miss me when I'm gone

The things you do that show you care
You're always down for truth or dare
Freeze this moment; let me stop and stare

Nothing before was real
This is the way I feel

And I can't wait for you to be my wife
To live this life together
And I won't let you go
I need you to know
That you are my heart, forever
And on and on and on
And we'll go on and on and on

For better or for worse
No matter how it hurts
You've got me to hold your hand
I promise you the world
In your wedding dress
We'll dance till no one's left
Don't wanna blink my eyes
Don't wanna miss a thing

I can't wait for you to be my wife
To live this life together
And I won't let you go
I need you to know
That you are my heart, forever

And I can't wait for you to be my wife
To live this life together
And I won't let you go
I need you to know
That you are my heart, forever
And on and on and on
And we'll go on and on and on

Inspiration

I love this!!!!!!!

:)

Sophia Bush! Such a strong, incredible woman who is making such a difference in this world.

I will never get tired of this show. It helped me through my teen years for sure! :)

Night #4: The Last Night of Renewal

Before renewal tonight, we had a meeting to talk about Catalyst, a convention down near LA our group is going to in April. We talked about some the fundraising we'll be doing and signed up for dates! It's going to be so much fun. This is the first time I've really done hardcore fundraising with a group, working towards something on my own. This is a big step for me and I couldn't be more thrilled. Here's what I signed up for:

• A Leadership conference, where we'll be serving food (March 3, 10-3)
• Taking pictures at the Valentines Dance (February 10, 5-8)
• Serving at BBQ family lunch (March 11, 8-1)

We'll also be having a Young Adults summer camp. I've never been to summer camp...so that would be like a dream come true for me, no joke! I am really excited about that. And I'm also thinking, I'm seriously going to need a job for all of the things we're planning and wanting to do coming up! LOL. You have no idea how excited I am for all of these things coming up...this is the start of something really, really good. 

We had a little time to kill before service started, so we all just hung around and talked for a few minutes, then grabbed our seats. I felt an overwhelming sense of peace tonight as we started worship and singing just confirmed everything.

"I yield, I yield, I let go of my worries and doubts

I yield, I give, I do not have to figure it out

I give up the right to what I think is best

I'll do what I can, but then leave you the rest

I yield, I yield all of my life to You my Lord."

"Here am I, Lord send me 

To the ends of the Earth 

I will go

Wherever you lead me, I will follow

Here am I, Lord send me!"

Tonight, our pastor spoke mainly to the younger generation with his word tonight about following God's plans. He has something special and beautiful for each of us, but insecurities tend to hold us back. It doesn't matter where we're from or what families we were born into, we can break the generational curses. Satan tells us lies about ourselves and pretty soon we start to believe them. We're not good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, etc. We feel ashamed or even that God is ashamed with us, so how could we ever be able to go on and do great things? Ya know what? God uses imperfect people; He uses people that have screwed up, because we ALL do. 

The youth pastor got up to speak and said the youth is going through a challenge called "Shift." God continuously wants to shift things around in our life. So, what is it that He's calling us to shift? Our attitudes? Our language? Our hearts? Minds? My attitude has been a big one that I've been working on for the last year, and it still definitely needs some changing as well. Romans 12:1-2 is the perfect verse for that. I've had a fear of failure, I've tried to be perfect, and at times I've tried to play things off like I had it all together. But, I don't have to be perfect. We all mess up, and God takes care of those things that we can't do. 

It's time to stop focusing on the things we DON'T want to be, and start focusing on what we DO want to be. Tonight, I felt God calling me back to my original passion and love of music/singing. From the time I was about five, I always knew that I had wanted to be a singer. As I got older, that didn't change. However, recently, I've just started feeling like maybe it's time to face the facts that I need to move on from that and that dreams change. But, this week I've been getting confirmation about music and singing. And for some reason, tonight as we were hearing the word and singing the last song of the night, The Grand Ole Opry stage kept flashing in my mind...maybe it's of things to come and maybe it's not. But, I trust God in His judgement and as long as I stay faithful to Him, He'll provide. God knew from the day I was born what He had planned for me, and He still has a plan now. I choose to follow them. 

I'm so sad that it was the final night, because I've had an incredible time of truly getting to know the Lord for who He really is. I feel like I have grown so much over the past four days! I have gotten confirmation about things I've been worried about, I've been prayed over and blessed, I've felt God's peace and love, and I've been able to share all of these incredible moments with girls that inspire me daily. I love them and thank God for their friendship. 

After the service, we hung around a few minutes. We were trying to make plans to go out for ice cream at Denny's or McDonald's, but it didn't work out. Ceci gave me the sweetest card after, and it totally tugged at my heart strings :*). Viviyan gave me a ride home, where of course, we had one of our infamous talks about all the wonderful things going on in life! 

Now, I'm catching up on a little TV (Pretty Little Liars and One Tree Hill). Tomorrow, I have a fun filled day in a small town where I go to school...yay! I hope the day goes by quickly.

That's all for now,

Shelby

Today's Inspiration

http://wishwishwish.net/

http://youmeandcharlie.com/ 

Breakfast :)

Lunch

Love this song!

This seemed to be the theme for today

Went to office max with my mom...so much fun! 

Cool Valentine card ideas I found..I really wanna try them

My motto

This is what I keep trying to tell myself ;)

Why be frightened of everything that you are not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilightseries.

If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.

You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or very casually next time she’s sick. Over Skype.

You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn’t burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day. You will walk the winters of your old age together and she will recite Keats under her breath while you shake the snow off your boots.

Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.

Or better yet, date a girl who writes.

(This was on the You,Me, and Charlie site...I loved it, because that is totally me!)